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今晚看了一个小品，

[灵魂咖啡馆]

说着几个来自不同背景的人，

都背带着不一样的梦想。

非常有趣！

搞笑同时具有深深含义的一部小品

也之后让我沉思,

这一年

这么难过的一年

都过了

那

[ 梦想 ]

真的。。还在吗？

after-rain night

在那夕阳下，

I'll be waiting for you.

I know this might sound stupid and foolish,

maybe you don't hear it

but,

I'm waiting for you.

yes, you.

Paperman

if only every love story is like Paperman's,

how cool it would be...

however, fantasy vs. reality.

it'll never happen, not even once!

there are times where I really think whether or not should I say it out...

once things are said out, there's no turning back...

and we might need to face any possible outcome out of it...

when it's related to BGR...

well, we need to think of the worst-case scenario first...

the person would highly likely reject you

(as if it's your first time been rejected, like duh)

why do I even have to mind this?

don't mind me babbling about bullshit.

having affection on someone is really a pain in the ass.

giving ourselves so many unnecessary emotions to take care of.

ARGH! WHY!!!!

how I wish I have no emotions at all,

won't have affection on anyone at all...

most importantly...

won't.....get hurt anymore...

Falling in love with someone really does make a lotta emotional roller-coaster ride ARGH!
!@#!@#!#($%($%*#

going hardcore.

slept in at around 2am plus in the midnight before the day,

then it goes with classes from 8am-6pm.

where at the same day,

you had your redo-presentation and also your midterm to sit for,

then you go to church to serve for the E2 Expo for Youth Camp.

after that you go back home,

lo and behold,

it is already 11:30pm.

okay, I gotta be honest.

I went through full-time mental-energy breakdown

for the whole day.

I don't even know what I'm doing during my midterm

what more in my redo-presentation in the evening

and another thing about serving at church at night for the Youth Camp,

that's even more of a challenge.

by bringing that break-down mental condition

it's just like going to a battlefield unprepared

you'll be dead anytime

(I gotta say that I look a lot more deadlier for the whole day, literally speaking)

learned quite a lot of things today despite bringing a horrible condition the whole day

even during an 8am class where a revelation just being revealed

just by saying that "law creates fear"
which is actually true

because the thing is

when law creates fear,

grace gives freedom

during serving at Youth Camp this evening,

it's quite the challenge of trying to minister to them by bringing that horrible mental condition

I even had a hard time trying to hold my thoughts together

and communicate with them in the best way possible

but it seems that things work out the opposite way round

told myself to go on,

then ministered to a lot of youth

people don't really get to experience the ecstatic experience right away

but I choose to not give in to the thought of

"ohhhhh, there must be something wrong somewhere"
or
"ohhhhh it must be because you're not focusing and not praying properly that's why they don't get to experience it"
or even
"hah, you're not even doing your job well! see, see, they didn't felt this/that/etc."

I believe that, despite my condition,

God can use the broken language that I spoke to speak deeper to the hearts of the youths.

so please Yao,

don't condemn yourself.

you are totally fine

you just need some rest, that's all :)

still, feel like wanting to go to somewhere wide

somewhere like the beach

and just shout until my lungs come out

I. Need. Remedy.

好想对你说。。。。

"我喜歡你　在我腦海裡　

徘徊很久很久　卻從未離開過　

好想要你走出夢　一起生活"

但很多时候,喜欢一个人却这么难说出口

害怕被拒绝?

从来不害怕被拒绝

并不是带着一个要求回报的心态

爱一个人，

从来都不会要求回报

只是心里带着一种害怕

被冷落总比被拒绝更恐怖

被冷落了,就收敛了

之后自己不敢说出来心里的感受

我想,

这应该是无数次被冷落后的恐惧

害怕一旦说了，

之后就会变得更寂寞.

喜欢的话,

真的就可以这么简单的跟对方说吗？

咪咪眼 :)

 这是我认识已久的小姐，同届diploma的初学期就在合唱团里认识了她。

虽然过了不久我就离开了合唱团，之后也知道她信主了！

她的生日，当天没得跟她一起庆祝，但之后还是约了她吃个饭当作是对她的补偿。

看见她开心就好。 :)

跟了她如今合唱团里的成员一起K歌！

认识了一些新的小朋友们！

她们还蛮爱玩的说！

希望能够再跟你们一大班一起去唱歌吧！ :)

咪咪眼公主，生日快乐！

愿主能够给你一切的快乐，恩典，勇气，与力量来度过你即将渡过的挑战。

也愿大家能够在你身上看见主的爱来影响你周围的人。

到达梦想真不易，但相信主的恩典能够带领你度过这一切，

因为我们有个力量无敌的天父！ :)

你也不会孤独一个人走过这条路，因为你有个[大家庭]！

主爱你多多，我们也爱你多多。 :)

久久一次

经过一阵子，终于又update这里了！

TARUC终于更新了他们的programme，现在已经有degree读了！

还没去报名，但会尽快去！

这几个月正在久等的东西也可以买到了！

那就是我的宝贝钢琴！

只是个初学者的钢琴，但有的用而耐用就行了。 :)

玩得正开心！哈哈！

上几天也去了TARUC的红砖音乐会当了神秘嘉宾！（也不见得多神秘啦！哈哈！）

很久没回到学院（如今已经是大学了）去表演了。

之前也因为朋友叫我去那里表演，不然也没去那里了。

去了那里真值得！

在那里遇见了[一万零一]，陈威尔，和汤小康！

他们都蛮friendly的！虽然与他们的话题不多，也不小的要跟他们说些什么，

但认识到他们就很开心！

小康哥的人很好，认识他之前都知道他也是同道中人，也是信主的兄弟。

他人也有爱闹的时候，野蛮好玩的嘛。 :)

表演好下了台过后小康哥还跟我说唱的很好，鼓励我称赞我的话。

非常开心因为有他说的那些鼓励称赞的话。

动力也增加了！嘻嘻！ :)

他们所分享的想法与经验还蛮有趣的！

也因为他们的分享也让我清楚知道，原来我在创作上所面对的东西都是正常的。

这样也欣慰了一些。

除了见到几位本地艺人，也遇到了很多好久没见的朋友。

也跟他们聊一聊，跟他们catch-up个人的状况。

 小康哥，真开心能够认识你！你所给我的鼓励称赞对我意义很大！听你唱了 [I believe in You] 这首诗歌虽然不是第一次，但依然还是那么地感动！相信主看见这也笑得很开心！ :) 希望有缘再见！也希望你能变成一个活的见证，让大家在你身上能够看见主的荣耀！一切荣耀归主！ 

这位小甜甜hyper-active女郎是认识了三年的朋友Vivian，人还是这么的活泼开朗。总是笑得这么甜美！天啊！糖尿病都来了咯！好久没见面了，也聊了一下！很开心能够再见到你！知道你最近也跟了一场比赛，祝你比赛成功也希望你读书也能够顺顺利利啊！这可不容易但我相信你可以的！加油！ :)