cried in front of a mirror before? I do.

Mirrors are always an honest object.

why so?

it reflects our physical selves, including our true selves.

what I mean by "our true selves" here is the one that is deep inside of us,

that one true form of us.

we can be happy, active and strong on the outside.

even when things doesn't seem to go well one day,

we can still put that big smile on our face and keep on pretending that we're happy

or even putting that mask on and deep inside believe that the next day will be better.

but one who haven't solve that issue of heart REMAINS in the heart.

ever tried CRYING after you look at yourself for a few moments at the mirror? I do.

I may look happy or fine on the outside, but actually I'm not.

I may look active on the outside, but actually I'm not that active.

I may look strong on the outside, but I just came to realize,

that I'm actually weak!

I HATE my fat self! I HATE myself for being weak!

nobody likes someone who is weak.

I just wanna find someone to talk with sometimes, but I don't know how to start and even who to trust with.

I'm shouting in pain deep inside, but I'm just too good in hiding it on the outside.

I. WANT. A. CHANGE.