明明就...? 是啊，真的明明就。

明明就


...唱歌没那么有实力且动人，


明明就


...唱歌时没观众缘，


明明就


...唱歌时没什么真正的有人去倾听，


唱什么狗屁歌啊？！

I wish... to be like a kid again. Can I?

for some people, movies like Rising of the Guardian would be some sort of a joke.

what's all these Santa Claus, Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny, Sandman, or even Jack Frost jokers are trying to do? they're just KIDDIES' stories. they ain't real.

answer to that? lies on which you stand on.

your own to settle.

instead of talking about the characters themselves, why don't we talk about something else more important like the VALUE of it?

the thing is, this movies itself teaches me of the importance of 

IMAGINATIONS,

DREAMS,

VISIONS,

MIRACLES,

HOPE.

When people or even LIFE itself tells you that all these are bullshit, trust me, those people who said it are the ones that has issues, not you.

People's perception about all these is that, "you go to school, you graduate, and then you go for work to earn a living, and then you might be having your own family, and then you retire from your work, and then that's the time you'll have grand kids, then you get old enough and then, you fill in the last blank." which is NOT WRONG.

although it's NOT WRONG, but it's definitely NOT RIGHT either.

what I'm trying to say is, life doesn't have to be FIXED in these ways.

everyone has imaginations, everyone has dreams to achieve, everyone has visions that they see, everyone has witnessed miracles before in their lives or through the lives of others, and most importantly, everyone has hope, towards someone or something.

just because that reality is cruel, I've been stupid enough to let life or even the society to shape my thinking towards these things.

true enough, there are times, where reality is our teacher.

so don't let life, people, or even the rules tells you that you can't do it, you won't be able to make it, or you're not gonna be there, things like that.

lastly, all of these are NOTHING WITHOUT LOVE.

let all of these, be done in Love.

Lord, please restore it for me. every single broken pieces of it. I want You and I need You.

Starting from Page 0.

This is totally a meaningful song.

It goes straight to the heart when I first listened to it.

Believe it or not, it made me think deep inside for what I've been through for this 1 year. Dang!

Okay, gotta put down that "PRIDE" of yours in your heart.

Honestly, now is the time I'd be true to myself.

YES,

I was scared, I was unprepared.

The thing is,

sometimes,

there's no time for us to even sit down and think straight

when we're going through miles and miles of serious decisions to do.

In the process, being strong is not even an option for us to choose

when being strong is just the only option we have.

I wanna make a change.

But I guess I'm not that strong to do so.

Expect everyone to understand your feelings?

Nah, everyone had enough of their own problems to deal with.

But sometimes, understanding people do helps us a lot

even if it's only by listening to what others might pour out.

So, to you, you, you, and you out there, 

bear in mind, you're deeply appreciated. :)

Empty

first time ever,

I'm feeling so weak,

feeling so useless.

Demotivated.

Somehow, the things I love to do the most, becomes the things that I do not have the energy doing on.

what's going on?

WHAT WENT WRONG?

something must have went wrong somewhere.

too many things happened in this few months.

everything was so quick in pace.

sometimes can't even give myself some time to catch a breath, or to think.

just graduated from my diploma not long ago.

and also, went to Taiwan to participate in the well-known The Million Star singing competition.

and yeah, I've lost.

personal feelings after the competition?

well, made me think of why I get to joined that competition in the first place.

my own opinion? everything's too fast for me.

I might not be ready for it yet.

I mean, "ME" instead of my singing "me".

but, I don't wanna regret on didn't try going through these kind of stuff.

cause chances doesn't come twice.

when there is one, grab it!

and competitions like these makes me know that, nothing comes easy.

outwardly, it seems to be only a singing competition.

but while competing in it, it's NOT JUST a singing competition.

it's living under a cruel reality.

the socialization between contestants, the organizer, the public, your friends and family, or anyone else.

sometimes you just can't do the things you want or sing the ones you love to.

which makes a lotta things are restricted indirectly/directly.

first I thought that,

things can go real smooth as planned or as expected.

but somehow, things turned another way round.

felt unexpected, for real.

you ask me if I feel down/sad? yes.

but WHAT CAN I DO?

not that everyone can help me do something about it.

you know what?

I should let myself disappear once in a while.

so that I would not be someone else's problem.

just to let you know,

I may be a 慢半拍 type of person, but I'm trying to do better!

come on! is that all you got?!

Dear Mr. D,

                You're just trying to be mean to me, giving me all this shit, trying to give me loads of hard time eh? Just because I got favor from God and men, you're trying to stand in my way and break me into pieces? Yeah, I almost fell for it, but I'm sorry to let you know this. All of this bad things that you threw to me just tend to make me stronger and stronger. Each and every attempt that you made to break me apart, are just making the desire deep inside me grow towards God more and more every time. I know that God is always backing me up in my hard times. Not only that, the desire of my dream to make my own mark on the sky gets even stronger now. So thank you, for making it much more possible for me in times of impossibilities. It only shows how possible it is for me to really achieve it. You want a revelation for that? Impossible = Im possible, cause with God, everything is possible. I know all your schemes and dirty works. My advice to you is, stop wasting your time doing what you're doing now. Not only to me, but to all the people's lives that you're trying to destroy. I do not need to justify any single thing to you since I'm not saying all of this out of pride. You're seeing a history maker over here and I'll make sure that you got served and take your sorry butt back to the pits of hell.

                                                                                                                                            From: Me

等着瞧吧！

一開始他不聽你，

然後他取笑你，

然後他抗拒你，

結果。。你贏。

roller-coaster ride

up and down and up and down and up and down~

redo IR individual presentation outline, last minute paperwork.

last minute this, last minute that.

why is everything soooooo last minute in production field?

end up what have planned didn't go as expected.

end up, my own plan seem to fail.

*sigh*

not that I didn't plan my time for it.

I did.

but, others won't understand, no matter how much words are said.

no one.

many things are going on lately.

internal struggle.

damn you, devil!

yeah, I'm sure you'll be laughing now.

but let me tell you, I won't give in! and I won't give up!

watch how I'll get through this, for the Lord is with me!

by then, I'll see who has the last laugh.

anyways, cut the crap short.

helping a friend of mine on making a song.

thinking of a melody of it.

Lord, I need Your infinite wisdom and heavenly melody to flow in me.

let it flow in my thoughts and in my heart so that I may be able to create a melody that uplift people's lives.

let this be an opportunity, that came from You.

陈升说，

“我不再让你孤单，我的风箱你的单纯。

我不再让你孤单，一起走到地老天荒。

我不再让你孤单，我的疯狂你的天真。

我不再让你孤单，一起走到地老天荒。”

how I wish.

how I wish, if I could just choose to be selfish.
how I wish, if I could just don't care.
how I wish, if I could just don't even consider about it.
let them pick up their own craps that they left down in their works.
yeah, every lecturers/tutors wants us to work as a team.
but what if there's a parasite in the team?

1. they don't do their part.
2. they did their part but they didn't put any effort in it.
3. finally other people need to pick up their crap that they've done.

I just keep reminding myself.
"don't keep dwelling on the problem/situation. focus on finding the solution to that problem."
what do we end up getting every time during our submission?
results= CRAP!
it's not the person who didn't do their part was the one who get scold,
it's the whole group instead.
after that, for those who didn't do their part won't even realize what adjustments they needed to do.
even if others advised them, they won't give a damn about it.

how are we gonna reach a "good teamwork" level then?
will the lecturers/tutors understand?
no, they just have "result" in mind since every one of them are so "results-orientated".
if we tell them of our problems,
what they'll answer: "that's your problem, you solve it out by yourself among your group."
will they care? think again.

I did more than what I'm capable of, and I end up getting all these craps by myself.
all the sacrifices I made for the contribution of our teamwork ends up getting nothing.

1 month left.
approximately 1 month left, for the 2nd trip there.
the epic thing is, I didn't make any preparations for it.
thanks to all the bloody shit crap that I need to handle of. yay! great! *sarcasm*
I made myself look like a blood-thirsty zombie just wanna get my life out of this insanity.
I felt so useless and hopeless.
when I put my all, it all doesn't seem to be working.

I just wanna find a space, for me to shout, and cry.

game difficulty mode: extreme.

nobody says it's going to be easy.

nobody says, that competing and studying at the same time's gonna be easy.

you've done it before, right?

but it's just different now.

it's not like the previous ones I've joined before.

more of all, it's not a small one but it's a WORLDWIDE competition.

and I'm stuck in the middle of "studies" and "competition".

"studies" are just givin' me a lotta heartache and headache sometimes.

okay, not just sometimes, but all of the time.

last minute updates, last minute changes, last minute works,

last minute this, last minute that, blah blah blah~

end up I need to change everything into Last Minute Mode.

I gotta keep on "picking up other people's shit stuff" on their works too.

it's not that I didn't manage my time well.

it's just that a lot of times I need to follow other people's time due to what they wish for.

if I don't accommodate myself to their timeline,

by all means I'll get a lot of complaints of my "un-commitment-ness".

this is one of the reason why I dislike GROUPWORKS.

that's why I end up can't proceed with my own progression.

please do me a favor,

don't judge my actions if you do not know the reason behind it.

in times, I get tired, VERY tired.

but do you think that others will care?

别人只会在乎你飞得多高，但从来没有在乎过你飞得有多累.
after what I heard from JC's sharing in this afternoon's class,
it gives me a reminder of what I wanna be, in life.
I'm not aiming just to be a singer.
I'm aiming for more than that.
and I won't give up!

learning heart.

I know you told me to rest at home.
I'm quite stubborn in a way.
although I know I get sick since 2 days ago,
and my voice is totally not in 100% condition.
in other words, my condition doesn't really allow me to go for performances.
but I still wanna choose to perform.
why?
simple.
I just wanna practice myself.
to use every single opportunity on stage as a practice for me,
in order to achieve something greater on bigger stages.
nothing comes easy.
even the sickness.
it gave me a hard time.
but I believed I will overcome it.
and so I take that step of faith to go along and perform at Bentong.
once I reach Bentong this evening,
gosh, it gave me a lot of memories flashbacks.
thought back of joining singing competitions at LD few years back.
those feelings are so familiar, yet so close to me.
and those contestants that's competing there,
well, I've been through what they went through just now. haha!
and for such place, fresh talents.
they're good. seriously.
I have some stuff that I should learn from them as well.
you know la, being a champ doesn't mean I really OWN,
it just simply means I have another great journey of experience to go through ahead of me.
I'm still learning, always, with that heart, in the things I love to do.
thanks to my stubbornness to go to perform with a BAD condition today, I finally 破音 on the last part of my last song.
but am glad the audience liked it. haha!

lessons learnt: go on stage with a 100% condition.

I got that.
and I wont stop learning and taking chances.
I know eventually, things will become better and better for me.

no more next time.

went to perform at Summit Hotel @ USJ today.
today is the Sense & Style graduation ceremony.
didn't really take pictures of the ceremony.
nothing special about it.
didn't perform well today.
didn't really get my mood into it.
Idk why, what I've prepared end up become a total waste.
my whole performance song list suddenly got change last minute.
it's just few hours before the performance itself.
I suppose to perform well on those songs.
ran off a few pitches which is one of my so-called "pantang larang".
end up didn't get a good feedback by Jaye.
in other words, I SUCK!
okay, that's just my own description towards myself.
maybe I'm just a little too harsh on myself,
but Idk, I just don't feel good after my performance.
no, those things shouldn't happen.
and I'll work hard!
I wont let it happen again!
no more next time!

expect the unexpected

there are many times in life where we expect that things should go the way we think it is,

including our daily plans, how things works etc etc.

but there's also another side of the story,

did anyone told you before to expect the "unexpected"?

I'm emphasizing this because either ways will happen in the unexpected way.

I went to the school office this afternoon to ask regarding the result of my application letter.

the office haven't finish the official part of the letter but somehow I've already gotten the result.

well guess what, my application is NOT approved.

after a month of waiting waiting and waiting.

finally there's an answer for all of this waiting.

what does this actually mean?

does this mean, I'm not able to go to Taiwan anymore?

by right, yes I'm not able to go there anymore since I'm not able to delay my last semester studies.

the worst thing right now is that deep inside my mind is struggling with what God has told me.

I had my Quiet Time with Him.

keep discussing with Him about Taiwan's stuff.

He bring me back to the remembrance of the moment where I get chosen in Popstar's 翻身赛.

that is exactly the same time where our 48-hour project was on.

He just keeps on revealing stuff to me.

I just have faith deep inside of me that He'll show me a way, no matter how hard things may seem to be.

and yes, now, my only choice if it's for me to continue going on for this,

is to study and compete at the same time.

"who are you kidding me?! this is an international big stuff! not like those usual competitions you've usually joined previously. you have to juggle between your studies and also the competition! which means you have to fly back and forth every week and rush those freaking assignments and home works! this requires more energy on either way from you, it's gonna be super tough."

yeah, this thing came to my thought at first.

I don't wanna be ignorant about it too, but acknowledge that these things will really happen if I really take that step.

yet, I've decided, to continue going for this.

I know that it's gonna be tough.

Jesus didn't tell us that things will become easy for those who've already believed in Him,

but He told us that He'll be with us always and His grace is far more sufficient for us.

since the beginning I've already acknowledge it,

and I really believe so and keep on having faith in Him.

I know that when He closes windows, 

He can open another loads of windows to us when we're in our desperate times.

my heart is at peace in any outcome that I've got.

and still, praise the Lord for every result that's done.

I'm gonna do my best!

I'm gonna prepare my field before the rain comes.

IT'S NOT ENOUGH! I WANT MORE, LORD!

if it's from You, Lord,

give me a sign,

give me that prompting,

I'm ready for tomorrow's outcome,

as my heart settles it with You.

treasure hunt on Wednesday night is already mind-blowing for me.

I went there with much expectance telling God that, "God, I believe You'll take care of my stuff if I take care of Yours."

Matthew 6:33 came in mind once I'm just typing this down now.

He's just so humorous in a way that He directly show me few clues of mine(though they're not the treasures)

but the first attempt is already humorous enough as He made me laugh on the spot.

that made me decided to stay at Jusco longer and keep on searching because I don't feel it's time to leave that place yet.

found a person who's in skinny jeans(which exactly is my clue) and his name appeared to be "Lim"(which is my friend's clue).

went forward and talked to that person, he's with his gf and happened to be his gf has this eyesight prob on her right eye.

we went on and pray a prayer of blessing over her. though nothing really happened literally, but deep inside I can sense that she just got touched by the Lord.

we also prayed a prayer of blessing to another couples, which the guy is quite awkward in the beginning

Praise the Lord. :)

just came back from Sectional Gathering not long ago on Thursday night.

we talked a lot on purpose alignment.

getting our purpose and mindset straight.

and personally, when you just asked me about the RM50k prize money whether do I get enough or not.

honestly, RM50k IS NOT ENOUGH.

after I think of it for a second, yes it's not enough.

I want more, Lord.

I'm not saying this out of greed or the love for money, but rather that I believe You're my providence in my crucial time of financial lack.

a lotta things seems to get into my way in this period of time.

even suddenly friendship gets into the line.

hometown friends might think that I've changed.

yes, I've sensed a lotta change in me for this 2 years plus.

everyone will, but to good or bad extent, that's something that they have to settle within themselves.

I miss all of them, no doubt about it.

didn't get to go back home for a long time.

it's not easy, you know?

how I have to face the spotlight or even the haters at the same time.

you're not in that position, and yes, before you judge me, see life ain't easy.

still, I bless you guys who's back at Sabah. hope you guys are doing well over there.

finally, gonna get the result at college office tomorrow.

this is the time, where all the decisions are made.

to approve, or not to approve.

Lord, let this be from You.

I surrender to You.

I speak Your peace upon myself. 

*shalom, shalom.*

热血在沸腾

我有个狂野的梦想。
那个梦想，并不是在小学里老师会问的问题。


“各位同学，你们有没有想过长大了要变成什么吗？”

小时候我们都会听到各种各样的答案。

但我总觉得我自己是在 “例外名单” 里，

因为都不知道自己要变成什么。

也只好骗老师，说我要变成像我的老爸一样，做个商业人。

一开始真的以为这个是我要的。

于是一直都在抱着这个理想往前走。

多年以后，

才发现自己渐渐失去了生活的方向感。

直到有一天我问了自己，

这个，是否真的是我想要的东西？

还是。。。我其实只在跟着爸爸的步骤？

那个我，

是个没自信的我，

而完全不知道自己的优点是什么。

总是觉得自己是个没出息的小子。

每天都在浪费生命。

面对了很多挫折，撞了很多的墙与板。

都已经到放弃的念头了。

有一天朋友鼓励我去唱歌时，

那时的我没勇气上台，面对不了自己那一关。

直到最后自己不顾一切地说，“就试下唱歌吧！”

那时候的我只觉得唱歌，是我小时候喜欢跟妈妈和姐妹一起做的东西。

喜欢在家里大大小小一起K歌。

而真的没想过，唱歌，却变成了我心里的释放。

不知不觉中，我却找到了心里的快乐。

音乐就是有一种很奇妙的魔力。
音乐真的能够带给人生很大的影响。

从今就想用音乐，来传达爱的信息。

这一路上支持我的家人与朋友，我会好好努力。

你们的每一份祈祷，爱心，与祝福，我都收到了。

非常感恩。

我会做好准备，创出那无限的可能，

创造出属于爱的狂想曲。

总有一天，能够有属于自己的一片天。

sudden curiosity

sometimes I just feel curious.

why does people avoid others that are so close to them?

I mean, when people gets up close and personal to you,

yet you tend to avoid in contact with that person.

well, if it's about heart issues, that involves the person's experience in the past or present(hurts, pain, sufferings etc etc etc),

which allows the person to avoid the one they're close with,

my only word is,

"I know you've been hurt by people, stuff, or circumstances before, and you might be afraid to open that fragile part of your heart again because of the pain and sufferings you've experienced. I totally understand those type of situation. but I'm choosing to be true to you when I can actually choose to lie and play tricks over you."

but still, I can't force any people about this, because we are human born with a free will of choice.

I'm just saying out mine.

it's either you choose to give yourself a chance and open up your heart or not.

but to a lot of you,

I just wanna let you know.

if you need someone who you can really trust or talk to,

or at least someone you can be TRUE to,

I'm not trying to promote myself here.

but I'm always here when you need me, okay?

don't be afraid to open up that fragile part of your heart.

what I know is, once you've open it.

you'll never know that you have a major breakthrough on it. :)

bless ya'll.

痛。

怎么心里，总是有这个感觉。
有时候都会再想，
我真的。。。有那么差吗？
差到没任何一个人都会看上的程度。
Forever Alone,难道来真的吗？
怎么有时，越想念一个人就会越心伤？
真爱也有它现实的一面。
不是谁情愿就能够解决！
只能够怪我自己，每次都是学不会！
学不会怎么去不要在乎。
学不会怎么去解释我的伤。
自己痛死都不愿说出来。
这，就是我。

truth hurts, but I accept honesty.

thank you, for being so honest to me.

I've already prepared for any outcome possible.

though the natural part of me seemed to feel the hurt,

but I'll be fine. I'm okay. :)
I'd rather hear the ugly truth than a beautiful lie.

it makes my heart so much in peace with myself.

what I can only is, to hope that you'll be happy always.

and yes, I deeply wish so. :)

doesn't matter whether I'm there or not.

I'm not that important.

haha!

but at least, everything's settled.

and I'm glad it did!

thank you, for everything, for your honesty. :)
I'll do my best, and be much more better and better.

and I'm looking forward that one day, you'll stand at your own dream stage,

and I'll be one of the small fans that's supporting you. :)

let's do our best together!

sleepless night

yup, this song says it all.
4 in the morning, yet I still haven't get into my dreams.
exam's over, I should be able to sleep well for now.
my mind feels tired, so does my voice after the karaoke session with Zhi Yun and Yong Xuan.
still, I have no idea.
I can't even sleep right now.
what's going on with me?
it's not that I don't wanna sleep.
but I just can't fall asleep.
somehow there's just a lotta things going on in my mind.
maybe it's because of the fact that I can't accept it's over.
yeah, before this I would really wish that exam quickly ends.
but now, how I wish that it won't end.
cause I won't be able to enjoy the great time in the exam hall with my fellow friends anymore.
which also means that, I won't be able to meet them again since it's sem break.

this is my first time doing such stuff for someone.
I mean, come on! a big guy like me making such stuff!
I just can't believe it!
yeah, everything I wanted to say is in that stuff I made.
yet, I don't expect for any response.
I just wanna express out my feelings, that's all. simple.
as long as BY is happy, BY am happy too. :)

最冷一天。。。

taking a lotta time to study and less sleep.
final exam's on this period of time.
when it's the time for me to sleep, I cant sleep.

why?

I do not want those times to end.
(don't get me wrong, I didn't mean that I don't wan't exam to end.)
but rather the times that I'm able to experience my college life with this big DBC family that I had.
I'll just lie on my bed and looking up to the ceiling.
then, they'll pop-out of my thought all of a sudden.
I can have a big smile on my face when the exam's over today,
but deep inside of me, I was unhappy that's it's over. (not referring to exam btw.)
today's the last day that I'll meet them, this would be the last time we meet each other at college.
by then, who knows when we'll meet again.
and who knows how long it'll be.
something that can't be described by words.
those feelings.
it makes my eyes tears-less.
as it all happens deep inside my heart.

I hope that it'll stay.
this moment, is perfect.
please, don't go away?

Things Unfold

I did my best, really.

but sometimes, our efforts doesn't seem to be worth even a bit for others.

not whining or complaining, but this is something that we're gonna get revealed at when we're facing any calamities in our daily lives.

every day, every moment, people will have expectancy towards something.

let it be your work, your relationship, your own life is also included into their expectancy.

people in this modern society talks about performances, how productive you are.

if you ain't doing your best or putting any effort into your work, you're just gonna get the bottom spot of the run.

people will tend to judge, giving comments, or even criticize you without caring whether how the process of us ourselves actually putting effort into our works.

they would just wanna know the end-result.

whether it's good or bad? yes or no? high or low?

a lot of sleepness nights, a lot of researches, a lot of effort turned up become nothing.

just a pile of junk, a pile of shit.

I'm sad, hurt and disappointed, and I believe my group does.

yes, personally I'm hurt with those words.

it carries indirect meanings in it.

I can just choose to hold my stand and stand for my group.

we did our best, you know?

bear with us, cause we ain't perfect as well.

we're just like YOU.

truth hurts, but I accept honesty.

I'm not smart, but I ain't dumb either.

I'm still a learner, but not a hater.

I learn how to accept different opinions from everyone.

I learn how to absorb and adapt in different surroundings and situations.

maybe this is how a character of a person is trained and molded.

I don't speak this out of pride, as I believe that everyone is tested in various ways.

and yes, if you're really having a lot of comments about me, then YOU got issues.

這一次揮手 恐怕再沒機會問候

In life, people come and go.

and still, separation is the part that people don't usually like.

especially your friends, your course mates, your spiritual family, and also your family members.

in a blink of an eye, it's already almost the end of the semester.

which means, the part that I'm not looking forward is almost here.

sometimes, I'll dumbly question myself,
"why must there always be separations in everything?"

be it in relationship, friendship, whatsoever.
having a lot of of stirred-up feelings lately.

talked to a few people lately.

those heartache, it's un-explainable.
I cried, good thing not confronting them face to face.
but it's that, I'm gonna miss them.

those people that came and become part of my life.

likewise, I'm glad to be part of theirs as well.

虽然我在你的生活里只不过扮演了小小的角色，

但我依然很开心，很满足。

至少，我曾在你生命里出现过。

don't you remember?

yeah, after one year you left us, finally able to meet you again.
and it's the first time seeing you after a year passed us by.
too bad I'm only able to meet you up the day before you're going back to Malacca again.
thought able to hangout and chat longer with you.
but still, am glad to be able to spend that little time to enjoy the moment together.
you changed a lot on your outlook, but you inner self still remains. haha!
still that talkative, that arguable junejune that I know.
I don't know when are we gonna meet each other again,
it's hard to say.
but I hope, that we're still able to have the chance to see each other again.
take care lots junejune. :)

so many the drama

last Saturday had a chance to join Keretapi Sarong with Jin, Derek, and Pork.

it was fun though and lots of exposures.

just came back from audio recording at a studio at Salak Selatan after class today.

a bit tired, but surely had a lot of great learning time and enjoying the whole process of it.

hope there's more and more chances to get into the studio again and create another chemistry.

singing Cantonese songs are something. lol.

more to learn, and a lot more space to improve. :)

can't believe I just sang 浮夸 at the studio and it didn't take a long time compared with the other songs.

but then, it was just an awesome time recording.

hope I can get the demos and keep it as a personal stuff. teehee. :)

after recording, it was already midnight.

can't believe we recorded until that late,

and end up knowing that the car park that teacher parked at has already been closed.

no one is there including the guards.

end up both of us gotta take a cab back home in a separate way.

I'm just glad that teacher reached home safely.

wouldn't want anything to happen to her.

quite a drama we had today.

but thank God that both of us are safe. :)

hey you......NOTHING!

yeah, Friday is Peilin's birthday.

which is the day after I got my results.
at first my day wasn't that good.

well, just because of my results.
but I just leave that behind me.
so, I didn't mind about it anymore.
wasn't suppose to have class on friday.
replacement lecture and tutorial class, what to do.
went to celebrate her birthday after tutorial class ends.

went to Pat Kin Pat San.
a lotta chit-chats, a lot of laughter, a lot of fun hanging out together.

and yes, am glad to have that hangout moment with them.
I wouldn't know that we're be able to be good friends.
we're just hi-bye friends at the beginning.
well, I guess, this is a part of God's plan.
to actually get to know such joker friend. XD

Happy Birthday Pei Lin.

be strong no matter what hardships you're facing.

most importantly, be happy.
though time is short, and I'm not able to hangout with you anymore next time,

I hope you wont be mad about this, since you know that I'm leaving soon.
but don't forget that I'm always there when you need me, aites?
well, enough of the sentimental stuff already.

gtg now. haha!

oh yeah, 1 more thing.

Pei Lin..................NOTHING! XD (our lame joke)

had a great time with these jokers. still, Happy Birthday, Pei Lin. :)

hey Pei Lin............NOTHING! XD

and the whistle blows..........

*peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!*


Game over!
yes, it's over.
"Fail" in a subject for the first time.
thought can have this winning streak longer until I graduate.
didn't know that I'll fail this real bad.
but I won't give up.
Never!

*faint*

I got woke up by a phone call in the morning,
getting to know that I screw things up.
and there goes my morning.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :(

1213am

feeling like wanna update my blog for a while.

right! here goes!

get to perform in Olivia Ong's "Are You Ready For Love?" concert as her guest performer last Saturday @ PGRM Cheras.
such an honor and privilege to be able to perform for a popular singer.
she's very thin in body size, moderate height, but yet she looks so sweet.
still, her voice was the attracting part of all.

mixed feeling deep inside me when performing on stage, but yet enjoying it most of the time. :)

the concert was awesome itself cause she's performing with her band.
they bring their own sound equipment all the way from Taiwan. :O
also get to meet 王治平, a very popular music producer from Taiwan.
he's the one who's in charge of bringing the whole team from Taiwan including Olivia's band, sound equipment, etc etc etc.

sadly can't take picture with him. :/ he's a very tall guy though, taller than me.
get to see a lot of stuff through that day's concert.
the thing that touches my heart on that day's concert is, to see Olivia's band members all join faith and prayed together before they perform. (OMG we have the same faith. :D )

it's really amazing that all of the band members are Christians and what moves me deep inside is to be able to see them joining faith and pray together at the back stage before their performance.
yet, I joined faith and prayed for that concert itself would be a success, and most important thing is that His name be glorified no matter what the outcome is! Amen!
Praise The Lord that it's a FULLHOUSE on that concert and the fans are passionate.
thank You for Your grace, Lord. :)
after that, went on for a press conference at the hotel at Times Square after the concert.
and then , we went on to take supper with Olivia and her whole gang from Taiwan.
get to seat at the same table with her, yet confronting her OMG.

I don't know what to do that time and quite paiseh on that moment, but it's good.
hope to see her again in the future, and yes, all the best in your singing career, Olivia! :)

Virus and me: guest performer of the night. after we performed. :)


like this pic! credits to the person who take this pic! :)

both of us on duet: way back into love. :)

and now, the show begins! :D

Olivia Ong on guitar with her whole band. the crowd went high.

and yes, Valentines Day.
my feeling about Valentines Day, "NOTHING SPECIAL".
it's just an ordinary day as the usual days.

class goes on as usual.

randomly go to sing k with a bunch of jokers today.(with a bad throat condition)
not really in a singing mood today, but just to enjoy the moment with them as much as I can....
.....before I don't have the chance to do so already.
time flies in a blink of an eye.
all of a sudden it's already February.
which means I have a lot of stuff to prepare on this period of time, by all means before I leave.
cherish everything, before there's nothing for you to cherish anymore.

tick, tock, tick, tock

"time's ticking,
clock's running,
moments' bypassing."



Pictures of people at my surrounding keeps on popping out of my head.
The moments I had,
the times I enjoyed,
the happiness I experienced,
the joy and pain that we've been through together.
There'll be times, that we're on different sides, but that doesn't last for long.
All of this can't be complete without you guys who's there to color up my whole college life.
It also means that, all of this, eventually will come to an end.



I don't know about you,
maybe I'm not that important to you guys,
I might just be a by-passer in your lives,
I'm just a SINGER to you guys and nothing more than that.
It doesn't make any difference even if I'm there until the end of the day to graduate with you guys or not,
so even when I leave,
no one might give a damn about it,
no one might even look back and say, "hey, where is he?"
at the end of the day, he's just a nobody in their lives all the while.
Face it, people come and go all the time.
best friends today can turn out to be hi-bye friends in the next second.
Things eventually will change by the time comes.
People might just be busy pursuing what they want,
but tend to miss the things that's so small but yet creates sparkling moments in their lives.
These "small things" are the things that colored-up people's lives,
to make a difference out of people's lives,
to tell the person, "hey, look! I'm always here if you need me aites?"



For those of you who treated me more than a so-called SINGER, 
I just wanna say,
"thank you, for this fella who's writing a lot of nonsense here, sees that there are people in his life who he can really call, A FRIEND."
"thank you, for making this guy's life more joyful with you bunch of jokers around!"
"thank you, for being there for me in times I'm down and short of hands."



Thanks for everything, my heart and support will always be with you DBC peeps. :)

Last but not least, this song's for everyone of you.
Hope you guys get to know the meaning of this song.
I'm surely gonna miss you guys.
今天以后没有我你会不会还寂寞？
当你们需要我的时候，我会一直默默地在你们的身边。
我，还是会很想你们。:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=eGNqW9sybyU

cried in front of a mirror before? I do.

Mirrors are always an honest object.

why so?

it reflects our physical selves, including our true selves.

what I mean by "our true selves" here is the one that is deep inside of us,

that one true form of us.

we can be happy, active and strong on the outside.

even when things doesn't seem to go well one day,

we can still put that big smile on our face and keep on pretending that we're happy

or even putting that mask on and deep inside believe that the next day will be better.

but one who haven't solve that issue of heart REMAINS in the heart.

ever tried CRYING after you look at yourself for a few moments at the mirror? I do.

I may look happy or fine on the outside, but actually I'm not.

I may look active on the outside, but actually I'm not that active.

I may look strong on the outside, but I just came to realize,

that I'm actually weak!

I HATE my fat self! I HATE myself for being weak!

nobody likes someone who is weak.

I just wanna find someone to talk with sometimes, but I don't know how to start and even who to trust with.

I'm shouting in pain deep inside, but I'm just too good in hiding it on the outside.

I. WANT. A. CHANGE.