Rise up from ashes.

Didn't update for a period of time now.

quite hectic with studies, and now, the competition that I'm in.

It's a lifetime experience where I get to experience God's grace not only in other parts of my life,

but also in my singing career, God cares. :)

I joined this competition with the worst sickness condition I've ever had.

I just go on and sing with that worst condition I have with me on that moment.

Surprisingly I got favors from all of the judges. :)

that goes on for the 2nd audition and then the semi-finals.

there's so many great singers from different places over Malaysia competing in the semi's.

I thought my journey in that competition had ended up in the semi-finals.

never would I know that they're gonna do a Survival Round for the 11th-20th placing.

and the thing is, I'm one of the contestants in their list for the Survival Round.

before this, I was still hesitating whether to go for it or not.

cause there will be tons of busy times with roadshow performances+press conferences+charity events etc.

but when I think it right back,

it's a chance that the Lord gives me.

all I have to do is just to go and grab the chance.

yet, I did that decision to go for it.

despite of all of the technical breakdown in my performance for 3 times,

I wouldn't know that I got chosen to the Grand Finals. OMG!

I've been through a lot of ups and downs in this competition.

trying to look back on what I've been through all the while.

it's been a tough journey, but I manage to rise up from ashes.

"As long as it doesn't kill, it makes you stronger."

Thank You, Lord, for making me a fighter.

anticipating more and more of You, including the Grand Finals itself.

Your name be glorified!

one "G" in the whole big box.

Thank You, Father. 

For everything I've gone through and yet to face in life, 

that You're always with me.

Lead me and guide me in every single aspects of my life.

I want every single second of my walk with You,

the greatest moments of my life.

For You're always the same,

while changing me to never becoming the same again.

You are always faithful even when in times I'm not.

You're always forgiving when I've done wrong.

You're always there to give me a hand when I'm down.

Your love makes me feel whole when I'm empty.

Thank You, 

for entering into my life,

for showing me Your love,

for Your amazing grace and favor,

for this amazing relationship I have with You,

is something that can never be compared to,

and nothing can ever take away this relationship we have.

There is nothing that can ever separate us.

happy birthday, longtimenosee.

yeah, it's been some time.
we never meet each other again after THAT day, nor do we even contact each other.
everything has changed since then.
we're not like what we used to be anymore.
cause it's already the past, something that we wont be able to turn around anymore.
yes, you may see that I may let it go easily because I'm a guy.
and eventually everything will end up becomes the guy's fault.
sad right?
you're not me, of course you wouldn't know.


you wouldn't know, 
when you loved someone so much, how much courage do you have to put into your heart, just to say those few words of cruelty to them.
you wouldn't know,
how much pressure that you have to bare in your heart, when you face not only a group of people who keeps on doing psycho attacks on you.
you wouldn't know,
how is it to cry without tears in your eyes while all you can do is just to see how your love one suffer when all the tears are like rivers deep inside you.
you wouldn't know,
how broken your heart was, when you say something that broke theirs.
you wouldn't know,
sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through your hands.


we gave it all, to watch it fall, like we've never meant at all.
I give and give the best of me, but couldn't give you what you need.
I chose to be the so-called bad guy.
to say those cruel words to you.
not because of my own selfishness.
for sure because I love you.


it's all over now.
though I know that both of you may hate me for life.
I just hope that I can be, the only person you'll realize that came to your picture that's daring to be honest to both of you in your lives.


I hope you and your daughter are doing fine.
thanks to both of you,
who came up in my life,
and build up colors in it,
for all the things that both of you had done for me,
my never-ending appreciations to both of you.
wish you two all the best in life.
I know both of you can do it without me.
I'll do my best too, to live a good life, without both of you.


happy birthday to you, auntie.

happyyetsad.

it's been quite a while since I update some stuff here.

Asia Ablaze was awesome few days back.

I had that sense of urge in my heart that I want to go for it.

yet, it was the best time of all.

every time when I'm exhausted in either way, God has His way of telling me,

"My son, come to Me, come and REST."

"Father, I'm not happy. I never experience true joy before. can you gimme true joy of laughter?"

"draw yourself to Me, as I'll draw Myself to you. come to Me."

and eventually end up I've been laughing and crying at the same time like nobody's business.

It can't be explained through our own logical thinking, it is something more than that.

something, that brings a deep impact right into the roots of your heart.

something, that can't be taken away once it's given to you.

something, that will last a lifetime when it enters your heart.

I'm glad, and thankful, for experiencing the divine laughter that God gives me. PTL! :)

1 smile from deep in the heart, can bring a deep impact to millions out there.

DBC2's Screening Day has also come to an end.

everybody's going to see our first-time production.

though it may not be as good as expected.

but yeah, behind the scenes, are the people that has their sleepless nights, doing their very best to make the production a success.

doing their very best to make every scene has a successful "CUT!"

doing their best to make everything count!

credits to my crew, and I believe everyone had a hard time during the production period.

but still,we should enjoy every single process of it.

to treat each other as a big family of BC students, just like how it used to be.

WE should stand up as 1 big family of BC not to show that we're Being Cocky, but to show to the world that we're Being Capable!

and there goes the screening for today.

feel happy that we've gone through all of this, yet I feel sad at the same time cause everything has come to an end.

I hope that the happiness remains, and yet motivates us to achieve more than what we got.

finals are coming soon.

gotta do my best in this final exam!

By God's grace, I CAN DO IT! *fired-up!*

hope I can go back home.

I.Miss.Home.

If the heart is not a bone, what makes it break?

There are songs that can really make you sad and cry when you hear them.

But it's actually not the song that makes you cry,

it's the people behind the memories.

The greatest gift you can give to a special someone 

is your TIME.

Its like you're giving the portion of your life

 that you can never bring back.

Good-bye is the hardest thing to say,

 because you walk away with only memories; 

and memories, 

well...

they fade away.

every time I put my mask on,

telling myself that I'm okay,

I'm strong,

who am I?

AH YAO WORRRR!

NI YI WEI AHHH!!

DON'T PLAY PLAY AHHH!

but behind that mask,

covers the dark side of me.

The pain, emotions, depressions,

you name it.

There are time, 

i feel like i am facing this world alone...

with nothing but tears, 

and stupid fake smiles.

有一种痛处看不见泪水。

有一种防卫叫做，“我无所谓”。

Can you hear me calling you?

I see a strange face in the mirror
A faded look in the eyes
Smiling is only a twisted movement of the lips
Who can understand my loneliness deep inside?

Like a boat rocking in the sea
Even the North Star cannot be seen
Who can set sails and forever leave this dark lake?


Sometimes, I think nobody can truly understand
All the pain I harboured inside
Fearful of using a sincere heart to face the world
Instead I have become more and more silent

A person floating in the sea
The person who is talking cannot be seen
Who can give me a warm embrace?
When I feel my heart's beginning to break


Please tell a tired and lonely me,
That you will always be waiting for me.

The moments

it's already 320am yet I haven't sleep.
just came back from BBQ with a big group of people today.
we also have Mr. Julius with us.
and guess what? he plays guitar too. cool! :D
something in common.
we hangout together, sing together, laugh together, get crazy together.
it's quite fun though.
it's a day where everyone gets to hangout in a group after a stressful period of time.
everybody's having a good time relaxing and enjoying the party.
some went back early.
while the others stay up until the end of the BBQ party.
okay, that's all for the BBQ part.

something's on my mind for the whole night just now.
you know, I miss you again.
I have no idea why.
不能说的心声，只能想念你.

oh well, it's time for bed now.
quite "early" anyways.
340 in the morning.
gotta take some good rest.