最冷一天。。。

taking a lotta time to study and less sleep.
final exam's on this period of time.
when it's the time for me to sleep, I cant sleep.

why?

I do not want those times to end.
(don't get me wrong, I didn't mean that I don't wan't exam to end.)
but rather the times that I'm able to experience my college life with this big DBC family that I had.
I'll just lie on my bed and looking up to the ceiling.
then, they'll pop-out of my thought all of a sudden.
I can have a big smile on my face when the exam's over today,
but deep inside of me, I was unhappy that's it's over. (not referring to exam btw.)
today's the last day that I'll meet them, this would be the last time we meet each other at college.
by then, who knows when we'll meet again.
and who knows how long it'll be.
something that can't be described by words.
those feelings.
it makes my eyes tears-less.
as it all happens deep inside my heart.

I hope that it'll stay.
this moment, is perfect.
please, don't go away?

Things Unfold

I did my best, really.

but sometimes, our efforts doesn't seem to be worth even a bit for others.

not whining or complaining, but this is something that we're gonna get revealed at when we're facing any calamities in our daily lives.

every day, every moment, people will have expectancy towards something.

let it be your work, your relationship, your own life is also included into their expectancy.

people in this modern society talks about performances, how productive you are.

if you ain't doing your best or putting any effort into your work, you're just gonna get the bottom spot of the run.

people will tend to judge, giving comments, or even criticize you without caring whether how the process of us ourselves actually putting effort into our works.

they would just wanna know the end-result.

whether it's good or bad? yes or no? high or low?

a lot of sleepness nights, a lot of researches, a lot of effort turned up become nothing.

just a pile of junk, a pile of shit.

I'm sad, hurt and disappointed, and I believe my group does.

yes, personally I'm hurt with those words.

it carries indirect meanings in it.

I can just choose to hold my stand and stand for my group.

we did our best, you know?

bear with us, cause we ain't perfect as well.

we're just like YOU.

truth hurts, but I accept honesty.

I'm not smart, but I ain't dumb either.

I'm still a learner, but not a hater.

I learn how to accept different opinions from everyone.

I learn how to absorb and adapt in different surroundings and situations.

maybe this is how a character of a person is trained and molded.

I don't speak this out of pride, as I believe that everyone is tested in various ways.

and yes, if you're really having a lot of comments about me, then YOU got issues.

這一次揮手 恐怕再沒機會問候

In life, people come and go.

and still, separation is the part that people don't usually like.

especially your friends, your course mates, your spiritual family, and also your family members.

in a blink of an eye, it's already almost the end of the semester.

which means, the part that I'm not looking forward is almost here.

sometimes, I'll dumbly question myself,
"why must there always be separations in everything?"

be it in relationship, friendship, whatsoever.
having a lot of of stirred-up feelings lately.

talked to a few people lately.

those heartache, it's un-explainable.
I cried, good thing not confronting them face to face.
but it's that, I'm gonna miss them.

those people that came and become part of my life.

likewise, I'm glad to be part of theirs as well.

虽然我在你的生活里只不过扮演了小小的角色，

但我依然很开心，很满足。

至少，我曾在你生命里出现过。

don't you remember?

yeah, after one year you left us, finally able to meet you again.
and it's the first time seeing you after a year passed us by.
too bad I'm only able to meet you up the day before you're going back to Malacca again.
thought able to hangout and chat longer with you.
but still, am glad to be able to spend that little time to enjoy the moment together.
you changed a lot on your outlook, but you inner self still remains. haha!
still that talkative, that arguable junejune that I know.
I don't know when are we gonna meet each other again,
it's hard to say.
but I hope, that we're still able to have the chance to see each other again.
take care lots junejune. :)